tug of war!

okay, so now i'm kind of torn between my labor day weekend plans.

last week when we went to SF, my sister was unwilling to go, and stayed in bed for an hour, arguing with my parents. to make a long story short, my parents asked her to stay with our uncle, and when we called him on the way to his house my uncle wouldnt let her stay at his house (we didnt inform him beforehand) and she had no choice but to go with us.

we're planning to go to SF again during the labor day weekend, but maybe she'll scream bloody murder and flail her arms like a maniac while rejecting our parent's plea.

since there's a possibility of my sister not going, my dad gave me an option, either go to SF with him and my mom, or go with my original plans and attend ARTHUR FEST (arthurmag.com). if i go to SF, i have no car. some of my friends who live in nor cal are going camping, and my friend who goes to berkley doesnt have a car. i'd be sitting in the hospital waiting room from about 11am-6pm, like i did last week. during that time, i see my grandpa about two times because he needs to rest, and there's not much to talk about with him since he cant talk with tubes in his mouth. reading in the room is quite hard, since people are talking and the noise coming from the tv.

if i dont go to SF, i feel this sense of guilt of not visiting my sick grandfather. but damn, arthur fest (yoko ono, sonic youth, merzbow, etc)!
so that's my dilemma. arhilaelgh ielghlsfuckinwayhwlh gnlstupidgnrwo8sg h42o90gn 0g8 094t !!!!!!Y#^(%@^$(@$

i feel like SF needs me more? and arthurfest is just selfish artsy pleasure.